I've Been thinking lately...

Thinking about how one thing can mean the world to a person...Seriously.

The smallest things make a whole world of difference to me. A few months ago I stayed in Washington for two weeks with my Aunts and Uncles and Cousins, Grandma and Grandpa and their herd of animals. I now look back and realize I acted like a putz. Really, truly. Quite frankly I regret the fact that I acted in such a manner, and I now feel like I pushed everyone away...

But lets cut to the chase shall we?


While I was there, sitting in front of the glowing box, my Annie came up behind me and tickled me.

My Annie is amazing. She always has been and she and I have had such a special relationship. I love her so much its hard to conceive on occasion.

I spent so much time acting like a putz I even pushed her away and she did that. It made me feel like I was five years old again, brought me back to old times and that she was MY Annie, not my Aunt, but my Annie, the one who was thirteen when I was born. The amazing one who let me sleep in her bed when I had nightmares about spiders when I was a child. She has been a friend to me for as long as I can remember. It brought me back to then and just as quickly as it had happened that moment ended and she kissed me on the top of my head.

She probably didn't even give it a second thought, but for me, three months later to be thinking about it...that's huge...


It makes me wonder...Why is it that one seemingly insignificant thing can mean nothing to someone and the world to another?

Meatz?! Oh Noez!!!!

Today daddy dearest thought it would be a good idea if he were to cook sausage for breakfast. =w= And Im only a few days into Vegatarian...ness...and its hard to resist!!! I had to cook breakfast for everyone and I made pancakes and that Sausage/Bean/Egg/Cheese/Onion/Bell Pepper tastyness. And I had to only eat the pancakes. Blueberry. And kept reminding myself that its for the best and then after I took my bathingsuit and tried it on. Instant gratification. I look so much better now and I have such a high self esteem that going back to meat isn't worth it. I will admit: I feel Hot! Like...Its hard for me to describe because I really never had much of a self esteem. :3 But I think I look amazing, like batter dipped and double fried amazing. 8D Lol

Its paying off. Its not worth going back to eating Meat. Forget that. I feel so much better, I feel healthier and I look healthier and Im quite happy with myself. Which is a first.

Another thing: I never realized how much I love my Brother. Its like...Wow. We had a conversation yesterday that ended with "I love you!" "I love you too!" and it was pleasant. I never realized we had that relationship, I guess its just because I'm getting older. I keep seeing more and more of my Dad in myself and that is one of the things. He was a butt to his sisters but he loves all of them dearly. :]

{Peace}

Ch-Ch-Changes :3

Well I changed everything around for my Blog. I think Green is kinda cute. and I like the color Scheme and the new Name. Absolutely adorkable. nwn In other news I stayed up all night to bake my folks cookies. 8D And because I did that Guess who Gets to eat cookies Too?! Yes. Yes you're correct, its me. EPICWIN!!!! Also I have a new opinion...Cleaning doors is a redundant task meant only for Busywork. =w= Just because a door is slightly dirty does not qualify it as disgusting. If Green gunk were starting to ooze out of the crevices in my door that, Dearest Reader, would qualify as disgusting. Dust? Not so much. I've been working like a mad fiend lately to get everything done and yet my room is still a mess...Oh well so long as they never see it and I clean it eventually when I get everything else done and everybody and their mother is satisfied than I guess It will be Okay. Till then I'll continue writing reports, doing Chem homework and Trig and getting everything in the house done until my step mom is well enough to clean and take care of her own horses herself again. I will take responsibility for it all and if they complain about my room then I'll clean it but not till that day. In fact Daddy walked into my room just so he could jump on my bed and tell me to wake up. Didn't work. In fact it had just the opposite effect. I slept for a good thirty minutes more. Ha ha, that's what you get for poking me and telling me to wake up. I spent all night making him cookies I deserve to sleep in on my Day off and nyah. So there. xD Oh yeah! Does anyone know of any recipes for Orange Tofu? Like Orange Chicken without the Chicken... I need to find one and soonly because I have a hankerin' for Orange Chicken like you wouldn't believe and want to remain Vegetarian. That would be nice. Lol

Much love.

I dislike that song...

Oh dear Lord Help me...

I have had to sing the Valo-Gram song, because I am in the School Chior, at least twenty five times in the past six hours. And at first I had no issues whatsoever with this lovely little song, in fact at first I thought it was cute. Absolutly adorable. But now that I have had to sing it all last night at least three times on top of the Twenty five to Thirty times today I detest it...In other news Trig test today, things seem to be getting easier and I am slowly realizing that I don't know it all (I know, right?!) ((Haha Annie)) (((Anyone else who reads my blog is probably lost by now, xD))). Its hard to believe that a Teenaged girl would come to this conclusion on her own. I didn't. :3 My Aunt is slowly helping me and Yes I realize that she only talks to me when I do things wrong because she loves me and lives like one and 3/4 states away. She doesn't hear much of the positive so I am alright with her just talking about the Negative. Because she doesn't dwell on things for long. Like today she kinda talked to me about stupid decisions over the web and such and how they could effect my long term goals but after she was quite done the conversation switched to how things were with Friends at home and such. After a couple long talks with Annie one must consider her side. She's normally right. :3 Gotta love the family.

Oh yeah! And I became a Vegitarian. Good for the Health, good for the animals. I am officially a vegablesuarus.

Much love. Peace.

Failure

So I failed Math...Trig is much harder than I had ever anticipated, and the worst bit is I thought I did good on that final...


Ugh...What more could go wrong?